I challenged myself to maintain a writing practice, and after the period of assimilation, as soon as life began to pick up it's pace again the consistency vanished. Past me woulda been ashamed of that. Present me, not so much.
The self-imposed pressure of maintaining a commitment is sometimes the best thing one can do, and sometimes it's completely off-base. The latter was the case for me. A period of absence from obligation, from commitments, has brought more peace than I ever thought possible!
I've been back in Sydney full-time the past 2 months. Short-term living - pet-sitting for Kristy for 3 weeks, looking after Millie full-time in Paddo, then helping her to move out after an interesting one night stay in a hostel, 2 weeks spent in my old building in Redfern staying in the unit below my old apartment whilst a good friend Nathan was in Europe on hols. And now, staying in another friend's unit in the block next door, whilst Adam is off on a Virgin Voyage from Miami! The Universe be really providing of late. Feel so grateful and blessed. Being back in my old suburb, surrounded by community, has been healing my soul no end. I even cooked up a gratitude BBQ in the building courtyard yesterday for a few people, and will be doing the same again next week.
It's been an interesting period professionally.
The tech consulting work is 2 months deep - it's been so engaging, though not without its difficulties. I've been learning the systems I'm working with as I go, creating automations in Monday.com for business process.Both the ASA and ANI interviews were "unsuccessful" - no feedback given, aside from too young/inexperienced. No regrets.Never heard back about the BDM role in Sydney, or the eng role in Canberra. And I also haven't applied for any more roles.
It's becoming all too clear to me that I'm a below average employee, my innate personality doesn't agree with it - but also a sub-par business-person. So much to learn. I am committed to pursuing freelancing in the short-term, whilst I figure out where to aim strategically. Remaining open to all of the possibilities 😊
I have had an offer accepted on my property in Gosport, so I will have more runway in the near future. I look forward to having that breathing space, and ability to think more clearly about what's next for me. But the exploration remains. I've picked up a compliance software idea that I started working on during my time at AECOM, am still working on my coding daily, getting back to training (jits on Friday was excellent, DJ BJJ vibes!) and genuinely looking forward to writing once more.
It's also my birthday in 3 days, but no factor... Doesn't mean that much to me any more. I'm turning 33, this last year has been a blur of 'things happening' but feels like zero progress has been made in any of the areas of my life that I care about, and many feel like they've gone backward. I know that objectively that isn't either true or possible, but that doesn't negate the feeling. Fun times.