It's been almost 3 weeks since my last update and what a whirlwind it's been! It took me a good couple weeks of emotional processing and reflection after the redundancy surprise to centre myself and find peace in it. I'm back up in Sydney now, have been for almost two weeks. It's been beautiful, supporting Kristy through her health troubles, reconnecting with friends and stepping into my power. I'm excited about what comes next. It turns out being unemployed in your 30s gives you the luxury of being really selective about opportunities... I plan to take it slow. Give myself the space and time to make the right decision for me about what comes next, tuning out the noise of other people's opinions to really check in with ME and make sure I make a considered choice.
I have so many diverse interests and curiosities, I know that options will abound if I can stay out of an energy of desperation and be patient. I'm open to a number of options. Casual work to extend my runway whilst I look for my next professional endeavour, contract work within defence or adjacent, the next crack at a business venture or an employed opportunity (if it interests me enough!)
The last few weeks have been an emotional rollercoaster in their own right. I have been put in situations where I have crumbled back into past patterns and old habits, unconscious living at its finest (worst!) I have been journalling and reflecting almost every day, fine-tuning my internal compass, reconnecting with my inner child, my values and principles, with the intention of both assisting with my professional decision-making and, more importantly, ensuring I show up in the world the way that I want to and know that I can. Giving myself the tools to do so, and the space to do so, has been a challenge, but I'm learning so much through the process of exploration into self-awareness and emotional intelligence.
Training has taken a back seat to the inner work and skill development. I'm hoping that the introspection will give me the clarity I seek on how to proceed. And in the short term, I'm fully okay with it. I'm not going to be a professional athlete, but I am a lifelong athlete. I'm becoming more confident, more focused, more self-aware. I'm becoming more in control of my life, and more in control of my decisions. I'm building a sense of confidence in my ability to make choices that are aligned with my values and principles, that originates from a love for myself and those around me.
I'm not sure whether I'll return to Sydney or stay in Adelaide. I know there are more opportunities for me in the defence industry down there. In the short term, I'm open to whatever comes. And I want to live from that place of openness.